It has been over a year sense I have even thought about Mindsay.
I use to have this so I could write what I felt in hopes I wouldn’t have the emotional connection with it. I could write how I liked someone, or how they have hurt me. And not nessecarly have to say it out loud so I didn’t have to feel the true emotions with it. But I have grown up since then I guess. To me it is easier to just not say anything at all. ;-)
So in true old school emo fashion, because lets face it, when I wrote in here every hour of every day, I was being very EMO. Haahaa
This song is my song of the day.
The Spill Canvas- All Over You
Yeah he's a looker,
but I really think it's guts that matter most.
I displayed them for you,
strewn out about from coast to coast.
I am easily make believe,
just dress me up in what you want me to be.
I'll take back what I've been saying for quite some time now.
I gotta feel you in my bones again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
I wanna taste you one more time again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
In my daydreams, in my sleep,
infatuation turning into disease.
You could cure me, see all you have to do now
is please try.
Give it your best shot and try.
All I'm asking for is love,
but you never seem to have enough.
I gotta feel you in my bones again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
I wanna taste you one more time again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
This life is way too short
to get caught up in all this stuff
when I just want you to love me back,
why can't you just love me back?
Why can't you just love me back?
(why can't you, why can't you)
Why can't you just love me back?
(why can't you, why can't you)
Why can't you just love me back?
(why can't you, why can't you just love)
I gotta feel you in my bones again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
I wanna taste you one more time again,
I'm all over you.
I'm not over you.
This life is way too short
to get caught up and all mixed up
when I just want you to love me back,
why can't you just love me back?
Why won't you just love me back?
Why can't you just love me back?
Well hello.
It's been forever sence I wrote in this and I figured it was about time.
So much has happened.
Where to start.
I moved out of my mom's house.
Quit my job and moved out of state.
All on the same day =] Yee for me.
Well ok it wasn't a surprise thing and
I did spend the whole month of July
getting packed and making sure work
found a replacement but it sounded so
much better the other way lol.
I love my new place.
I just need to get use to the not so
short-person friendly cupboards.
I am 5 1 and they are built for either
Ondre the Gaint or a center basketball
player haaahaa. To say the least, I stand
on the counter a lot.
I also need to get use to living with so
many boys. It seems like if one comes
over, everyone does. And then they don't
leave. But the company helps when I feel
Home sick.
My life is every different here.
And I kinda like it. It like all things
has it's up's and down's but I'm hoping
it will be an equal balance. =]
Well that is probably time for me to
sign off. I don't have internet and I'm
using a friends computer. But I'll be back
soon.
until then...
Hello, let me introduce you to
The characters in the show
One says yes, one says no
Decide which voice in your head you can keep alive
Even in madness I know you still believe
Paint me on canvas so I become
What you could never be
I dare you to tell me to walk through fire
Wear my soul and call me a liar
I dare you to tell me to walk through fire
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to
Hello are you still chasing
The memories in shadows
Some stay young some grow old
Come alive there are thoughts unclear
You can never hide
Even in madness, I know you still believe
Paint me your canvas so I become
What you could never be
I dare you to tell me to walk through fire
Wear my soul and call me a liar
I dare you to tell me to walk through fire
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to
Hello
Hello...
I dare you to tell me to walk through fire
Wear my soul and call me a liar
I dare you to tell me to walk through fire
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to
Hello...
Hello...
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to
Sweet like a kiss sharp like a razor blade
I find you when I'm close to the bottom
You can't appreciate the time it takes
To kick a love I always knew was kind of wrong
And as I'm putting out the flame
Somebody brings up your name
Oh Oh Oh Oh
Baby baby baby bring me down
I want to be right where you are
Baby baby baby bring me down
You can look me in the eye and break my heart
Break my heart
Six AM unruffled pillow
Laughs out loud at my trusting heart
It's like I didn't see the pennies
I missed the fountain by a couple yards
If you would only stay gone
Maybe I could move on
Oh Oh Oh Oh
Baby baby baby bring me down
I want to be right where you are
Baby baby baby bring me down
You can look me in the eye and break my heart
OHHH baby baby baby bring me down
I want to be right where you are
Baby baby baby bring me down
You can look me in the eye and break my heart
OHHH baby baby baby bring me down
I want to be right where you are
Baby baby baby bring me down
You can look me in the eye and break my heart
Break my heart
Bring me down...
Love me without fear
Trust me without questioning
Need me without demanding
Want me without restrictions
Desire me without inhibitions
Accept me without change
For a love so free
Could never die
I found this and stole it.
Heehee
I adored it... sooo you know.
The original song has a lot more hallelujah's in it but for space purposes I deleted some . . .
Well, I heard there was a secret chord,
David played and he pleased the lord,
But you don't really care for music, do you.
Well, it goes like this the fourth the fifth,
The minor fall and the major lift.
The baffled king composin' hallelujah,
Hallelujah,
Hallelujah.
Well your faith was strong but you needed proof,
You saw her bathing on the roof.
Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you,
And she tied you to a kitchen chair,
She broke your throne, she cut your hair.
And from your lips she drew the hallelujah,
Hallelujah,
Hallelujah,
Oh, baby I have been here before,
I've seen this room and I walked this floor.
You know, I used to live alone before I knew you,
And I've seen your flag on the marble arch,
And love is not a victory march.
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah,
Hallelujah,
Hallelujah,
Well, there was a time when you let me know,
what's really going on below.
But now you never show that to me, do you.
And remember when I moved in you,
The holy dove was moving too,
And every breath we drew was hallelujah,
Hallelujah,
Hallelujah.
Well, maybe there is a God above,
But all that I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you.
And it's not a cry that you hear at night,
It's not somebody who's seen the light.
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah,
Hallelujah,
Hallelujah,
Hallelujah,
Kate Voegele - "Hallelujah"
